a rock. a revival.

a song to set the scene // bloom by lullanas

At first, I thought someone had cursed our house.

You find one polished green gemstone in your driveway and all is normal.

You find another one in your back yard, and surely, someone has planted them with malicious intentions.

Taking my theory online, I started searching: “green rocks around house meaning.”

Contrary to what I truly believed was a planted malediction, what I found were various spiritual significances, none of which had to do with curses.

We all know the color green represents new beginnings and hope.

Receiving green gemstones can also promote themes of exploration, growth, and deeper meaning.

While the rocks likely came from an overturned potted plant from my neighbor’s, I still find their placement around a home full of growth rather… meaningful.

As someone who’s intricately connected with the seasons, I’ve noticed that as winter’s cold grasp melts away with spring, my sprits have started to bloom.

Like something stirring deep within, change was happening, and it was right on track with spring.

My twenties have been full of extreme ups and downs, and this year was definitely the most challenging.

Struggling deeply with anxiety, depression, work stress, a perceived “fat” view of my body, unravelling the childhood idea that being emotional was bad, and living through the deep darkness of winter, things have felt truly taxing on my mental health.

Tired of feeling this way all of the time, frustrated at wasting precious days wallowing in my low lows, and lost as to how to tackle these many things, I started with the only way I know how to change: one step at a time.

I continued counseling.

I sought guidance from my friend who’s a dietician.

I got up the courage to seek medical assistance.

(yes girl I’m taking Zoloft and what a difference that’s made)

I made a conscious effort to change my ways.

And as the green life bloomed around me, I felt my spirit being reinvigorated with life and hope.

As Rupi Kaur says best:

“people too

must wilt

fall

root

rise

in order to bloom”

How these green rocks made their way around my house when they did, I’ll never know.

But whoever, or whatever brought these stones to me: they rock.

(pun always intended)